The holiday season is supposed to be “the most wonderful time of the year” but honestly, as an adult, sometimes it just seems overwhelming and stressful, splashed with a touch of sadness. Money can be slim around the holidays. Making family traditions with young children can be messy and loud. Reflecting on the year can have us thinking on those we have lost throughout the years.
Every year, I tell myself that I will financially plan better for Christmas. Every year something comes up that causes our finances to be tight. This year happens to be no job and my husband currently in school. We are getting by living on a prayer and odd and end jobs. We kept the gifts simple for our boys this year and try to invest our time with them.
We are trying to establish fun and meaningful family traditions. We enjoy the Christmas lights around town and watch our favorite Christmas DVDs. We attend church and enjoy singing the Christmas songs about our Saviour. We also make sugar cookies every year. This year our toddler was old enough to help out. It was a great bonding moment, and we shared cookies with neighbors, but it surely left the RV kitchen a MESS!
As the end of the year approaches, I am reflecting more on the people that have came and went in our lives. I yearn for my miscarried babies, especially the first that would have turned four this month. I think of lost loved ones, family and dear friends, that have passed away. I think of my stepdad who is battling stage four cancer and how my family is states away this year and can’t afford to visit.
Yet despite all the emotions, we try to keep the joy and excitement for our boys sake. We decorated the RV and are looking forward to the church’s Christmas party fellowship. We enjoy Christmas music and keep watching those movies. We play games together and spend time exploring our local town together. Even with all the excitement, Christmas as an adult is just not quite as joyful as we expected it to be.
Do you have a family member or friend you miss this time of year? Tell me about it in the comments below.